In my quest “to figure it out,” I’ve been saying it a lot:
I just need to get into a routine…
I just need to figure out how to deal with this…
I just need to let it go…
I just need to relax…
I just need to say no…
I just need a hot bath…
I have my little life in my inept little hands, like some Rubik’s Cube. I twist it one way and then another, adjusting this only to mess up that. I keep trying to figure out what I need to make everything feel “right.” And when I figure that out, let me tell you, I will have earned some peace. I will achieve that stillness if it’s the last thing I do.
I get to do a really cool thing every Friday. Since I work at a Christian school, I get to attend chapel with the kids every Friday morning. Most often, I go to the elementary grades chapel, because that’s where my kids are, but sometimes I go to the middle/high school chapel.
Middle and high school chapel has a great band that leads the music for the service. This morning I got to hear them sing, and they sang I song that I haven’t heard before, and it almost physically brought me to my knees. I managed not to cry in a room full of teenagers, but just barely. Here is a link to the song on YouTube, click over and listen to it:
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You’re the One that guides my heart
Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me
Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I’ll fall on You
Jesus, You’re my hope and stay
Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
You’re my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
31 Feet 