Rubik’s Cube

/ Dana Kirchoff

In my quest “to figure it out,” I’ve been saying it a lot:

I just need to get into a routine…

I just need to figure out how to deal with this…

I just need to let it go…

I just need to relax…

I just need to say no…

I just need a hot bath…

I have my little life in my inept little hands, like some Rubik’s Cube. I twist it one way and then another, adjusting this only to mess up that. I keep trying to figure out what I need to make everything feel “right.” And when I figure that out, let me tell you, I will have earned some peace. I will achieve that stillness if it’s the last thing I do.

I get to do a really cool thing every Friday. Since I work at a Christian school, I get to attend chapel with the kids every Friday morning. Most often, I go to the elementary grades chapel, because that’s where my kids are, but sometimes I go to the middle/high school chapel.

Middle and high school chapel has a great band that leads the music for the service. This morning I got to hear them sing, and they sang I song that I haven’t heard before, and it almost physically brought me to my knees. I managed not to cry in a room full of teenagers, but just barely. Here is a link to the song on YouTube, click over and listen to it:

Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You’re the One that guides my heart

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I’ll fall on You
Jesus, You’re my hope and stay

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

You’re my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

What I need is God. I need to lay the Rubik’s Cube of my life down at his feet. Every. Single. Day. I need to confess my sin. I need to ask for His forgiveness. I need to call upon Him. I need to thank Him. I need to open up my heart and praise Him.
I need His grace. That’s all I need. His grace covers my messed up little life and somehow makes it something beautiful in His sight. He slides His agile fingers over all the mismatched pieces, making them line up, making everything right. It’s not my job to figure it out. I just need to be still and know that He is God.

4 thoughts on “Rubik’s Cube”

  3. Dear Dana, You can tell that you have your own personal fan club with our family. Your thoughtful and beautifully crafted blogs have meant much to us here in New Ulm. Thank you for sharing!

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